Well, I thought I better post while things are going great in my crazy, wonderful, extremely hectic life. One of the things I used to do in journaling, was write when things were positive & "up" & then I could go back & review them when I was down & it would remind me that I am capable of making positive choices & I have changed over the years. Things are great right now. My stepdaughter has been chosen to play on varisty this weekend - as a freshman! (: & the best part - she always includes me in her announcement texts. She's such an amazing girl/woman! (: She tells me about the everyday girl drama & she chooses not to participate in it. She walks away from it & tells the other girls to knock their crap off (although I'm sure that's probably not the wording she used.) hehe! Anyway....she's just a great kid. Remember 14 - almost 15 years old? Girls are MEAN! I was at dinner with a friend the other night & we were just talking - which I desperately needed a girls night - especially with a fellow stepmom - and she started a sentence..."If women" & I stopped her. Exactly...what else needs to be said? "If women" - But the cool thing is - my stepdaughter realizes that already.
Anywhoo....life is good right now. Stepson is non-hormonal right now & that is a good thing. He's pre-teen & WOW his hormones are all over the place. I remember being his age & it's a tough time - but his nuts are getting ready to drop & I've determined that it's harder for a boy to go thru puberty. Now, please don't be all upset by that comment. But girls are prepped as to what is coming, we have some shred of an idea of what it's supposed to be like - crappy - but no one shares that with little boys. You know men bond by scratching themselves - they're not supposed to talk about that. BUT I WISH THEY WOULD! It'd make being a stepmom to an 11 year old boy a lot easier! (:
So basically this blog is to remind me - in the hard times when I want to stop my crazy life - there are great moments & these are the moments that I will hold on to & cherish. And these moments make all the hard ones completely worth every moment of that crazy life I call mine!
Wednesday, August 24, 2011
1st blog
I've decided I need an outlet for my crazy, hectic, wonderful, sometimes heart-breaking life. Since I'm married & have an instant family - I've learned that there is no sacred hiding place for my journal anymore - so .... blogging it is. Blogging is new to me & be warned....I will probably jump around in my blogs...but that's how my brain works.
I'll begin by saying that prior to this marriage, I've been alone. I've been married before (no children) - but still was alone & never had to worry about anyone but myself. I'm also an only child. I have a step-dad, who is better than my father was & had a step-mom once - but not for long & she's not worth the space I'm writing on. So...I got married almost a year ago to my high school sweetheart. He's divorced with 2 children, teen & pre-teen with very busy schedules. Between the 2 of them, they are in 6 sports & numerous school activities. I went from only me - to instant family. It feels like one of those water monkey things, that you add water & they grow instantly? Only I feel, sometimes, like the water monkeys have outgrown their space, and I can't find me anymore.
I knew that being a step-mom would be hard. As I stated earlier, I have a step-dad & I was a very confused & lost little girl & needless to say...I wasn't the best stepchild. That being said, being a step-mom is FRIGGIN HARD! I really had no idea how hard it would be. I was foolish. But I'm very much in love with my husband & my stepkids. I know that motherhood is a thankless job...but being a step-mom is extremely thanksless. You don't count. And let me tell you, being an only child & pretty much alone most of my adult life, not counting is about the hardest thing on the planet to come to terms with. Oh I know - "it's not about you" - but my life WAS about me. Now, it's about a minimum of 3 other people. Then you have to factor in the Ex-wife ...UGH....and in-laws, my own parents who are seperated & can't be in the same room, his friends, my friends, our new friends. There's not a lot left over for me time. Oh yah, I work full time & he owns his own business that consumes a lot of his time.
So....there is a brief background on how this blog is starting. Hope to write at least on a weekly basis.
I'll begin by saying that prior to this marriage, I've been alone. I've been married before (no children) - but still was alone & never had to worry about anyone but myself. I'm also an only child. I have a step-dad, who is better than my father was & had a step-mom once - but not for long & she's not worth the space I'm writing on. So...I got married almost a year ago to my high school sweetheart. He's divorced with 2 children, teen & pre-teen with very busy schedules. Between the 2 of them, they are in 6 sports & numerous school activities. I went from only me - to instant family. It feels like one of those water monkey things, that you add water & they grow instantly? Only I feel, sometimes, like the water monkeys have outgrown their space, and I can't find me anymore.
I knew that being a step-mom would be hard. As I stated earlier, I have a step-dad & I was a very confused & lost little girl & needless to say...I wasn't the best stepchild. That being said, being a step-mom is FRIGGIN HARD! I really had no idea how hard it would be. I was foolish. But I'm very much in love with my husband & my stepkids. I know that motherhood is a thankless job...but being a step-mom is extremely thanksless. You don't count. And let me tell you, being an only child & pretty much alone most of my adult life, not counting is about the hardest thing on the planet to come to terms with. Oh I know - "it's not about you" - but my life WAS about me. Now, it's about a minimum of 3 other people. Then you have to factor in the Ex-wife ...UGH....and in-laws, my own parents who are seperated & can't be in the same room, his friends, my friends, our new friends. There's not a lot left over for me time. Oh yah, I work full time & he owns his own business that consumes a lot of his time.
So....there is a brief background on how this blog is starting. Hope to write at least on a weekly basis.
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